It’s true, it has almost been one week since I last smoked and I feel great! I haven’t noticed any body changes yet but I’m sure I will. I have noticed an improvement in my wallet. At times, I do long for the taste of a cigarette, but the nicotine craving is no longer there.
I feel pretty damn proud of myself. There will be more challenges to come, I’ve just been slacking this week.
I slacked off for a few days, there really hasn’t been much to report on. I made it through the last two days without any issues. Today has been different. It’s a weekend day, I don’t have my work to distract me from smoking. I’ve smoked 6 cigarettes today and I know I’ll smoke one more before I go to bed. I know I can do this, I’m just bored. That’s the main reason I smoke, out of boredom.
Sometimes, I do smoke to alleviate stress. On Thursday, I was driving to work and another driver pissed me off. I have a bit of road rage. ARGH, BAD DRIVERS MAKE ME MAD! After the incident, I wanted a cigarette more than anything. However, I made my 40 minute drive to work without smoking!
Foods can trigger my urge to smoke as well. If you are a smoker, you must know what I’m talking about. Cigarettes go so well with coffee. A cigarette with coffee is like the mashed potatoes and gravy with turkey. They compliment each other.
Cigarettes go hand-in-hand with booze, too. A smoke is so satisfying while I’m drinking beer or liquor. I don’t go out drinking as much as I used to, so I suppose this is good for my cause.
But, I should get back to the issue at hand…I slipped up today. I know that I can do this though, I’m just going to have to try harder.
So, it’s my third day of this smoking cessation business. Yesterday was pretty uneventful. I’ve tapered down my daily cigarette intake each day. Today, I am smoking 6 cigarettes. (FYI: I am a night owl, I go to bed late. It may seem like it should be day 4, however, I do not consider it a new day until after I’ve gone to bed.)
Yesterday, I worked. When I’m working, I don’t smoke as much, it’s just not convenient to have to leave my desk, walk out to the street, and smoke. Today though, it’s been a different story. While I was getting ready for work (and having my first cigarette of the day at 1:00 PM), my supervisor called and offered me the night off. I was more than happy to take her up on her offer! Soon after that, I knew it would be a challenge. How will I make it through this entire day on only 6 cigarettes, without my eight-hour break (work)?
My "bucket o' butts". It's a metal beer bucket that I use as an ashtray. It's about 3/4 full of cigarettes I've smoked. Gross, huh? I can't wait to get rid of this thing.
I did it though! It is now 12:36 AM and I still have 2 cigarettes left to smoke. I am not experiencing intense cravings. I’m proud of myself. Tomorrow may be a bit of a struggle for me, as my daily ration will be reduced to 5 cigarettes. We shall see…
Today marked the first day of my attempt to quit smoking. I had been dreading this day for quite a while. Frankly, the process of quitting sucks and I was not looking forward to the cravings and the inability to satisfy those cravings. Though I know that this is something I absolutely must do, my life depends on it.
In actuality, my first day was easier than I had expected. I allowed myself 7 cigarettes today at 9:45 AM, 11:15 AM, 2:00 PM, 5:00 PM, 7:30 PM, 10:00 PM, and my last one will be at 12:00 tonight. Typically, on a day when I am not working (like today) I smoke every hour on the hour. I’m actually proud of myself for sticking to my guns!