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A Confession…

I have a confession to make.  I’ve started smoking again.  One day, while I was smoking my e-cigarette, I realized, I just want to taste my cigarette.  It’s not the smoking I need to give up, it’s the nicotine.  With the electronic cigarette, I was getting my daily dose of nicotine (and then some), but I wasn’t enjoying that Marlboro 27 taste I love so much.  Those who’ve never smoked can’t understand how a cigarette can taste enjoyable.  That’s the best way I can explain the taste, “enjoyable”.

I do intend to quit nicotine, though I’m not sure when.  I know that it is possible, as I was able to quit for 6 weeks two years ago.  I may make it a resolution later this year, but most-likely I’ll do it on my own and share the news once I’ve kicked the habit for good.

And now,  something that’s been bothering me tonight.  I was at work and one of my co-workers said to me “I think you’re depressed”.  Well, that’s pretty obvious.  I’m sure I must come off that way to everyone because I am, in fact, depressed.  Then she said “what are you going to do?”  This particular co-worker is often looking out for me.  She knows I’m unhappy with my life and she would like to see me break out of my funk.  Then she said something that really struck a chord with me.

“I feel like I’m stuck in neutral and everyone else is moving past me.” I said.

“Well, no offense, but that’s true.  You aren’t doing anything about it.”  She said.

She wants me to go back to school.  I would like to go back to school, but that would mean continuing to live with my parents.  I’ve hoped to get a new job that pays better so I can move out.   I’m 31.  I hate my life.  I hate living at home.  I’m so embarrassed and afraid to meet new people.  I can’t tell a potential friend or boyfriend that I live at home with my parents, but then again, I can’t move out because I don’t have a job that pays enough for me to live on my own.  If i go back to school and get a Master’s Degree, I could eventually have a job that pays better and doesn’t make me feel ashamed.  I hate being so indecisive.

I’m such a loser. What do I do?

 

Electronic Cigarettes

In my last post, I spoke a bit about e-cigarettes.   Do a search for e-cigarettes and you’ll come up with hundreds of links for the devices.  It’s overwhelming.  I chose AquaVapor for one reason: the BBB approves of the company.  If the Better Business Bureau likes it then that is good enough for me.  I’m not going to advocate buying a certain brand, just do your research and find an e-cigarette that suits you. On January 10, I placed my order for the AquaVapor 510 One “Box Set with all the Trimmings”.  I also chose their premium eLiquid 200ml sample pack, because I like variety.  I selected the expedited shipping for only $6.95 and I received an email confirming my purchase.  Lo and behold, my package arrived two days later.   Now, without further adieu, the unboxing:

The package

The package

This is what's inside the package. As you can see, it's packed up very nice and secure.

This is what’s inside the package. As you can see, it’s packed up very nice and secure.

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The premium starter kit box closed and open. An instruction booklet sits on top.

The premium starter kit box closed and open. An instruction booklet sits on top.

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Inside the box sits a pack of 5 cartomizers - the mouthpiece which holds the liquid - and two batteries - one automatic and one manual.

Inside the box sits a pack of 5 cartomizers–the mouthpiece which holds the liquid–and two batteries–one automatic and one manual.

Everything that comes in the previous box. Two bottles of refill liquid, a 5 pack of cartomizers, the two batteries, the USB charger, and the AC adapter.

Everything that comes in the previous box. Two bottles of refill liquid, a 5 pack of cartomizers, the two batteries, the USB charger, and the AC adapter.

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The accessory bag and its contents.  I did not select the faux Burberry case, I selected "fabric" and this is what I got.  There's a car charger, 10 more  cartomizers, and a USB cable.

The accessory bag and its contents. I did not select the faux Burberry case, I selected “fabric” and this is what I got. There’s a car charger, 10 more cartomizers, and a USB cable.

The 200ml of premium eLiquid.  I should point out here that the eLiquid in the box is  "medium nicotine" and the cartomizers and orange-capped eLiquids and cartomizers are "high nicotine".

The 200ml of premium eLiquid. I should point out here that the eLiquid in the box is “medium nicotine” and the cartomizers and orange-capped eLiquids are “high nicotine”.  The “flavors” are: Regular, Black Tobacco, Camal, Cappuccino, Caramel, Clove, Coffee, Double Mint, Fine 555 Tobacco, Flue Cured Tobacco Flavor, Irish Cream, Kahlua, Mint Chocolate, Red Energy, RY4, Salam Menthol, Vanilla, Virginia, Waffle,  and Wenston.  I can’t wait to try some of the more “exotic” flavors!

And finally, here's a picture of a cigarette battery charging.

And finally, here’s a picture of a cigarette battery charging.

I hope you enjoyed my e-cigarette unboxing.  Stay tuned and I’ll tell you all about the experience.  For the time being, why not enjoy this post of celebrities smoking e-cigarettes.

Challenge #1 – Again

The Challenge: During this time period, I resolve to quit smoking for good.

The History: If you have read my past posts, you probably noticed that I have a history of smoking.  Nine years now, save for the 6 weeks I quit back in 2011.  It’s an ugly habit and yet it is so difficult to give up.  Ask most smokers, I’m sure they don’t want to be slaves to cigarettes.  That is exactly what you become, a slave to the almighty tobacco gods.

Lately, I’ve felt the negative effects of my bad habit.  I can’t walk up two flights of stairs without being out of breath.  My teeth, which were once so pretty, are getting that tan tinge to them.  I’m frequently coughing.  So why do I get so much enjoyment out of smoking?

The Benefits: There are numerous benefits to quitting, here’s a list:

  • Better breathing
  • Longer lifespan
  • More attractive outward appearance – whiter teeth, fewer wrinkles, younger skin, no yellow fingers
  • Better ability to do physical activities
  • More money in my wallet
  • Better smelling

There are many more benefits that I don’t have time to list here, I’m sure I will experience these benefits once I’ve put down the butts.

The Plan: Last time I successfully quit smoking, I had tapered off of cigarettes.  I would allow myself so many cigarettes a day and decrease that amount each day.  This time, I purchased an e-cigarette.  For those that aren’t aware, an e-cigarette is a device that resembles a regular cigarette.  There is a liquid inside the e-cig designed to taste like real tobacco (or sometimes fruity flavors). The e-cig is refillable and reusable. The liquid inside does in fact contain nicotine, however, you can lower the dose and eventually buy liquid that has no nicotine. Anyway, one of the components heats and vaporizes the liquid and you are able to inhale/exhale the vapor, essentially mimicking the smoking experience.

The Time Period: This will be an ongoing challenge.  I’m not quite sure how long it will take.  I believe it should be pretty quick, considering that I am replacing cigarettes with a device to simulate smoking.  I still have a pack and a half to smoke, but I anticipate finishing those packs in about two days.

Electronic Cigarette Inhalation

Electronic Cigarette Inhalation (Photo credit: planetc1)